It is what is on my mind as I wake up in the morning. It invades my thoughts throughout the day.
I will do things unheard of to maintain my addiction and have a steady supply of the thing I crave.
I was not always like this, as a young man, I flirted with it recreationally. As I grew older, it consumed me. It still does.
It has crossed my mind recently that, someday soon, I may not be able to quench my desire as simply as I have been able to.
As I mulled this over in my mind, It became clear that I may indeed become a criminal in order to feed this overwhelming urge. I may steal, alienate myself from friends, even members of my own family if I have to. I WILL have what I want and no-one, not friends, family, law enforcement, Religious Fundamentalists,….NO-ONE will stand between me and my addiction.
Will I use force?
Will I cause injury to another human being standing against me?
Ultimately I must answer this one question: “Am I willing to fight to the death to enjoy what I love”
The answer? ….. a resounding “YES!”
I am Dexter Americus and I am addicted to my American Freedom and way of life… and, no, I will not be seeking counseling.